how much

Maybe I'm going crazy but why do I feel like i'm in a trap and for some reason can't find my way out. My friends think I'm the bad guy for not telling them all my problems and issues, like really you guys need to grow up. I get they are my friends and they want to have my back but if I need you i will let you know myself. personally I think i should give up by now , and this time it's going to be me, myself and I because I'm done with all of this... if there's an problem let me know. Maybe it's just me but if something bad happens and I don't feel like saying anything you're just going to get mad at me. come on somebody anybody agree with me here it's like of you want to know so bad I might as well post it on facebook or on twitter. I'm way to grown for this. 

be brezzy!
#done with this crap

not to sound...

Okay not to be rude but as much as I love my friends the more things get in my way of me being me. So my friend Chrissy she dated this dude right and while they were dating I became friends with him and everything they been through he was the first to tell me and Chrissy told me too but after she told Sevena so yeah. Well one night I was on facebook and Chrissy told me that he change his relationship status to "it complicated" so I messaged him asking what was going on and he told me he doesn't love her, it's not the same feeling that he had for her from the get go and how he feels bad because he mislead her and now she's got a lot going on the last thing he wants to do is hurt her. Meanwhile she told me how much she loves him and if anything was suppose to happen to their relationship she would be very upset. So it kind of bother me because I already knew how he felt so I told her to tell him how she feels, me hoping it would fix everything. I guess not but after all of that she told me she still loves him after they broke up and she wanted me to solve  it. I agreed to it to be honest I don't know why but I go up to him and ask do you still like Chrissy and his answer was no I hate her. So i went back and told her that and she wanted to talk to him so i went and got him and on the way to Sevena's locker he grabbed my hand so she saw that and was pissed off at me. damn its so simple there a reason to everything and there's a reason y'all broke up just leave it alone but now I recently hit him up on facebook telling him that there was something important I had to tell him but it was going to ruin our friendship but he promise me it wouldn't so I told him that since we stated talking and while you and Chrissy were in your last trimester of the relationship I started to develop feeling towards you so I left it at that now look where we are very happy and together( I think) but still I enjoy being around him but of course it's the girls I have to deal with but honest to everything in my life I don't care what they think anymore because if you guys were my real friends you would be happy for me no matter what but at the end of the day they're still my family and I still love so yeah Ohana means family and family means nobody gets left behind. Never would I ever be torn between my girls and this guy.

looking and finding

have you ever lost somthing or someone.. well i have im not going to get into detail with you guys but i lost someone and i don't care what it will take i'm  going to find her so i willing to take any kind of risk so that's all i have to say so wish me luck bye.

why??

i don't get it. somebody please explain to me why this is happing to me. in my post yesterday i told you guys a bout this guy i liked that my friend went out with. so i wrote him a letter saying how since i still like him, i don't want to ruin a friendship between me and him so i was told him i'm ending it before i regert it but long story short he showed this girl arielle and ahe's my friend so her way of helping the situation was to make fun of me and stuff but anywho i called him yesterday night saying i'm not ready t say goodbye as friends yet but now iam because my friends courtney told me today in math class that they were talking bad about me and she went up to him and said" you know i heard everything what you guys said and you are a bad friend for not having her back and by the way i am going to tell her" and she did i'm hurt so my plan is when i get home i'm going to call him since he wasn't in school today and i'm going to say: i never thought i would ever say this but i HATE YOU! that's basiclly it so  wish me luck

Becky (Rebecca Gomez)

check this girl out her name is Becky G. Her real name is Rebecca Gomez and this girl is awesome her music speak to a person soul well that's my opinion but still check this passage out about her.

SIX YEARS AGO, BECKY G. HAD WHAT SHE CALLS “A MID-LIFE CRISIS.” “IT WAS LIKE, ‘WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE? I’VE GOT TO GET IT TOGETHER AND FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT TO BE,’” SHE SAYS. SHE WAS NINE.

“I KNOW IT SOUNDS CRAZY FOR A NINE-YEAR-OLD TO HAVE A MID-LIFE CRISIS,”

SHE ADMITS, “BUT IT JUST HIT ME THAT I WANTED TO PURSUE MUSIC IN WHATEVER WAY POSSIBLE. GROWING UP, IT WAS THE ONE THING THAT WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, WHETHER IT WAS HIP-HOP, POP, COUNTRY, OR SPANISH MUSIC, IT JUST ALWAYS COMPLETED ME.” NOW A PRETERNATURALLY CONFIDENT 15, BECKY HAS CHANNELED HER DRIVE INTO A BURGEONING CAREER AS A SINGER, SONGWRITER, AND RAPPER. SHE HAS SIGNED A DEAL WITH KEMOSABE/RCA, THE SONY MUSIC ENTERTAINMENT IMPRINT FOUNDED BY VETERAN HITMAKER DR. LUKE, WHO HAS WRITTEN AND PRODUCED A SERIES OF NO. 1’S FOR KATY PERRY, KE$HA, KELLY CLARKSON, AND BRITNEY SPEARS. LUKE SIGNED BECKY AFTER VIEWING A YOUTUBE CLIP OF HER SWAGGERING HER WAY THROUGH AN ORIGINAL RAP SET TO “OTIS” FROM JAY-Z AND KANYE WEST’S WATCH THE THRONE. BECKY OPENS THE SONG DECLARING: “IF EVERYBODY’S GETTING ONE SHOT, I AIN’T MISSING.”

“I WOULD HAVE SIGNED HER OFF THAT VIDEO ALONE,”

LUKE SAYS. “I WAS 100 PERCENT IN. SHE HAS SO MUCH PERSONALITY AND HER VOICE JUST POPS OUT OF THE SPEAKERS. THEN I MET HER AND DISCOVERED SHE COULD ALSO SING AND PLAY THE GUITAR AND I THOUGHT, ‘THIS IS EVEN BETTER.’ THEN I FOUND OUT SHE COULD WRITE AND IT WAS LIKE, ‘WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GOING TO TELL ME, THAT YOU’RE ALSO VAN GOGH?’ HER POTENTIAL IS LIMITLESS.”
BECKY’S RECOLLECTION OF HER FIRST MEETING WITH LUKE? “HE SAID, ‘SING ME A SONG ON YOUR GUITAR,” SO I SANG FOR HIM AND THEN WE TALKED ABOUT FOOD AND HOT SAUCE FOR AN HOUR. I LOVE HOT SAUCE. AND I THOUGHT,

‘THIS GUY GETS ME.’ WE JUST CONNECTED AND IT WAS LIKE, ‘OKAY. THIS IS IT.’”

IT MAKES SENSE THAT WHAT BECKY TOOK AWAY FROM MEETING ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL PRODUCERS IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY IS A CONVERSATION ABOUT HOT SAUCE. BECAUSE DESPITE HER CONSIDERABLE TALENT, SHE IS ALSO A NORMAL 15-YEAR-OLD IN EVERY WAY. BORN AND RAISED IN THE INGLEWOOD SECTION OF LOS ANGELES, BECKY GREW UP PLAYING SPORTS (BASEBALL AND SOCCER), MAKING AUTHENTIC MEXICAN FOOD WITH HER GRANDMOTHER, AND, AS THE OLDEST OF FOUR, HELPING HER MOM WITH THE HOUSEWORK. “WE WOULD SCRUB EVERYTHING AND LISTEN TO THE TEMPTATIONS, ETTA JAMES, AND JAMES BROWN — OLD-SCHOOL FEEL-GOOD MUSIC AS I CALL IT. WHEN I HEAR THOSE ARTISTS, I CAN STILL SMELL THE WINDEX,” SHE SAYS. SHE ALSO FELL IN LOVE WITH THE TRADITIONAL MEXICAN RANCHERA SONGS HER FATHER PLAYED AND THE HIP-HOP ARTISTS AND POP SINGERS LIKE CHRISTINA AGUILERA AND JENNIFER LOPEZ THAT THE KIDS IN HER NEIGHBORHOOD FAVORED.
AT AGE 9, THOUGH HER PARENTS DID NOT HAVE MUCH MONEY, BECKY CONVINCED THEM TO LET HER START GOING ON AUDITIONS FOR COMMERCIALS THINKING SHE COULD CONTRIBUTE TO THE FAMILY’S INCOME AFTER HER PARENTS LOST THEIR HOME AND MOVED EVERYONE INTO BECKY’S GRANDPARENTS’ CONVERTED GARAGE. “IT WAS A TOUGH TIME,” SHE RECALLS. “I WAS IN PUBLIC SCHOOL AND DOING COMMERCIALS FOR THE DISNEY CHANNEL AND NICKELODEON, SO THE KIDS AT SCHOOL ASSUMED I HAD MONEY AND WE DIDN’T. THEY WERE LIKE, ‘OH, SO YOU GET TO FLY HERE AND THERE AND WE HAVE TO STAY AT SCHOOL?’ I WAS BULLIED AND GOT INTO FIGHTS. I EVEN GOT JUMPED IN THE GIRLS’ BATHROOM. IT WAS REALLY BAD.”
NEEDING AN OUTLET FOR HER EMOTIONS, SHE BEGAN WRITING HER OWN SONGS AND RECORDING THEM ON GARAGEBAND AT AGE 11. BY 13, SHE HAD TAUGHT HERSELF TO PLAY THE GUITAR. SIX MONTHS LATER BECKY WAS INTRODUCED TO MIKE MANI AND JORDAN OMLEY, KNOWN AS PRODUCTION DUO THE JAM, WHO HAVE WORKED WITH BRANDY, JOJO, AND LEONA LEWIS AMONG OTHERS. SHE SHOWED THEM HER LYRICS AND THEY BEGAN WORKING ON THREE TRACKS, “OTIS,” “LIGHTERS,” AND “NOVACANE,” ALL OF WHICH FIND BECKY CONNECTING THROUGH HER VIVID RHYMES AND SINGING HER EMOTIONS IN THE SOARING CHORUSES.
ON “LIGHTERS,” WHICH IS BASED ON THE BAD MEETS EVIL TRACK OF THE SAME NAME, BECKY PAYS TRIBUTE TO HER INFLUENCES, NAME-CHECKING EVERYONE FROM HER FAVORITE FEMALE RAPPERS LAURYN HILL AND TLC’S LEFT-EYE TO CURRENT STARS KATY PERRY AND BRUNO MARS. “I WANTED TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE ARTISTS WHO HAVE INSPIRED ME, THOSE FROM THE PAST AND PEOPLE IN THE GAME NOW AND LET THEM KNOW HOW MUCH I LOOK UP TO THEM,” SHE SAYS. ” AND ’NOVACANE’ IS BASICALLY MY LIFE STORY. IF PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO THE LYRICS THEY WILL KNOW WHO I AM, WHICH I THINK IS REALLY IMPORTANT. YOU WANT PEOPLE TO HAVE A FEEL FOR WHAT YOU’RE ABOUT. ALSO, WHEN I WRITE, I LIKE TO TELL A STORY, BECAUSE WHAT DRAWS ME IN AS A LISTENER IS WANTING TO KNOW WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN OR HOW THE STORY ENDS.”

“ALL I’M DOING IS PUTTING MY LIFE ON PAPER,”

SHE ADDS. “I’M SURE THERE ARE OTHER GIRLS OR GUYS OUT THERE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH SIMILAR THINGS. IF I WRITE A SONG ABOUT IT AND SAY ‘IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY,’ I THINK THEY’LL CONNECT TO IT. I WANT TO BE THERE FOR PEOPLE WITH MY MUSIC WHETHER I CAN MEET THEM IN PERSON OR NOT.”

BECKY IS KEEPING THAT PERSONAL MISSION IN MIND AS SHE SPENDS HER TIME IN THE STUDIO WORKING ON SONGS WITH DR. LUKE, THE JAM, AND OTHER PRODUCERS SHE HAS YET TO REVEAL. “IT’S EARLY DAYS,” SHE SAYS. “EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHO I AM, MUSICALLY I’M A BLANK CANVAS. I KNOW WHAT COLORS I WANT TO USE BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT PICTURE I WANT TO PAINT YET. THIS IS MY TIME TO TEST THE WATERS AND TRY DIFFERENT SOUNDS. I JUST WANT TO STAY CREATIVE, SHARE MY IDEAS, AND SEE WHERE IT ALL LEADS.”

you could listen her cover to lighter on youtube i love her she's my new insprition

hurt and loved

okay. everyone find love somewhere and they also find hurt but for me i found both... there's this guy in my school i known since last year and i liked him but he dated my friend but you know what that was one of the most disfunctional realtionship ever. but now they broke up cause my friend cheated, i feel hurt because i was the one there for him and he didn't realize that and i don't think he still does but anywho let's get to love the love part; i found love with this guy named javain james and he's amazing. i told him everything there is to know about me, i know ladies you guys are probally wondering( girl are you out of you're mind everything. like what?) well my insecurites and my problems but there's a reason why he wanted to get know the real me and now he knows and i'm glad he does because we talk for hours on the phone and we really like each other. you know what that part of life there's going to be hurt and loved in all different realtionships so yeah that's it. it's been awhile since i been on here so oh yeah before i forget .. i know it's a little too late to say this but happy new years.

crazy things

Okay there's a storm coming near my town so it's like should I be afraid or no? To answer that question nope i'm not afraid because at this point I'm having so much fun with my cousins. Also I have god by my side. There's a song that goes if god is standing by my side then why should I be afraid of the pestilence that rolling by night. So that's what I'm going by but I hope you guys are okay but there's nothing really left to say beside be careful and I hope the best.

Good night!
# no longer afraid